I am almost too scared to share this

Finally coming out as me, once and for all

Oh, Vermont in the fall.

Hello Beautiful Human,

In many ways, I’m in absolute free fall. It makes complete sense, of course — breakdowns are breakthroughs, and I am finally awake — aware — and at home in this body of mine aside from when I have fugue states.

I wish I could say I have a plan to make myself less messy – less chaotic and less unpredictable. I keep trying to create one. You’ve watched me do it here – over and over and over again. But it’s time I stop asking myself to be anything other than exactly who I am.

Because I can’t be less messy. I can’t be less chaotic. And I can’t be less unpredictable. 

No, I can’t. I can’t at all. Because I am living with a serious mental illness. And it is messy, chaotic, and unpredictable. And on top of that, healing is all those things, too, and I am living that as well.

Now, you’re likely balking at these statements as most do – C’mon Kate, you work at Harvard, for gosh sake. And also — you literally ran a company for legitimately five years. Yo…